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Jul. 15th, 2020 11:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
you know, I really like the people here -- I like reading through my friends list, I like finding out about people's days, I like being able to shoot off a quick comment with one click. But I hate that I feel so much trepidation about posting here. I know logically that 1 person who doesn't even follow me shouldn't make me feel like this. But it does.
I've been trying to figure out why I prefer posting on AO3, Patreon, tumblr, and heck, even my personal DW, so much more than here, and I think it traces back to being told, by one person through multiple comments in different spaces, that I have no right to be on this site and having my basic skills and knowledge challenged. I get enough of this feeling of "you don't belong here" and "you don't have the right credentials" as part of daily life, thankyouverymuch. I know logically that my reading list is full of awesome people and that this is a safe space. But it still doesn't feel like one. Posting here makes me feel exposed in a way that's not true in all the other spaces.
I hate that that's true, so I'm going to try to fight against this subconscious trepidation a bit more. But in case you're wondering why you see more of me in other spaces, this is part of the reason why.
I've been trying to figure out why I prefer posting on AO3, Patreon, tumblr, and heck, even my personal DW, so much more than here, and I think it traces back to being told, by one person through multiple comments in different spaces, that I have no right to be on this site and having my basic skills and knowledge challenged. I get enough of this feeling of "you don't belong here" and "you don't have the right credentials" as part of daily life, thankyouverymuch. I know logically that my reading list is full of awesome people and that this is a safe space. But it still doesn't feel like one. Posting here makes me feel exposed in a way that's not true in all the other spaces.
I hate that that's true, so I'm going to try to fight against this subconscious trepidation a bit more. But in case you're wondering why you see more of me in other spaces, this is part of the reason why.
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Date: 2020-07-16 08:08 am (UTC)I want to SMITE this person, my favorite Soup. I'm in your corner too.
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Date: 2020-07-16 04:11 pm (UTC)