Alright, fine.
Dec. 19th, 2018 08:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
potofsoupI've been feeling short on spoons -- trying to build up activity on DW, but simultaneously there's all this hubzilla and mastodon talk, while at the same time half of everyone has escaped to twitter or PF and then yelling about it in a variety of discords and slacks. All these platforms and all this effort is ... a lot. And at the same time, there's a frustrating sense of stagnation -- between the Great Scattering and the holidays, everything is in a holding pattern -- a lot of name squatting but not a lot of posting.
If you asked me yesterday, I would have said to fuck all this waiting -- choose a platform and start posting. Instead of waiting for activity, *be* the activity.
But today, I'm feeling a bit burnt out. Anyways, after whinging about it on Slack, I've decided that I'm gonna just chill the fuck down. Figuring out federated fandom is someone else's problem. I've always been overwhelmed by large chat groups, so why force myself to join them now? I'm just going to focus on DW and AO3. I'm going to scroll through my DW "reading page" and get to know old and new fandom folks better. I'm going to finish this dang MTH comic that I've been working on for far too long and then post it to AO3. I'm going to tidy up the DW comms for the fan events that I'm modding. Then maybe in a few months, I'll check in and see how the federated fandom stuff is going.
So I guess, in a way, I *am* choosing a platform. I just have to get over the fact that, by doing so, there will be content from other platforms that I won't be seeing. That's sad, but now that I think about it, that's not a new decision. There's always stuff that I'm missing out on, and That's Okay.
If you asked me yesterday, I would have said to fuck all this waiting -- choose a platform and start posting. Instead of waiting for activity, *be* the activity.
But today, I'm feeling a bit burnt out. Anyways, after whinging about it on Slack, I've decided that I'm gonna just chill the fuck down. Figuring out federated fandom is someone else's problem. I've always been overwhelmed by large chat groups, so why force myself to join them now? I'm just going to focus on DW and AO3. I'm going to scroll through my DW "reading page" and get to know old and new fandom folks better. I'm going to finish this dang MTH comic that I've been working on for far too long and then post it to AO3. I'm going to tidy up the DW comms for the fan events that I'm modding. Then maybe in a few months, I'll check in and see how the federated fandom stuff is going.
So I guess, in a way, I *am* choosing a platform. I just have to get over the fact that, by doing so, there will be content from other platforms that I won't be seeing. That's sad, but now that I think about it, that's not a new decision. There's always stuff that I'm missing out on, and That's Okay.
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Date: 2018-12-20 12:10 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-12-20 07:39 pm (UTC)Unclenching is definitely a good way to put it -- there's just so much going on, and I keep feeling like I should ... participate, somehow? But the realization I had last night was that ... well, these are social situations that I wouldn't opt in to normally, so --- why do it now? And mostly just recognizing the emotional toll it was having on me.